Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

2010. IS A BLAST. i was actually gonna say not one of the best but i did have some best moments so i guess... 2010 is really... something.. well.... ANYWAY. First off, i would want to THANK people. for giving me a great year. for giving me a well-lived 2010. I would never have wanted to live 2010 any other way. it's not one of the best but life's like that! THANK YOU. first of all, GOD. for never leaving me. i know i am at my most terrible this year yet your provisions never fail i love you so much. hope i made you proud at least and i hope i'll be more of a better servant in 2011. PARENTS for supporting me. DADDY. I love you so much and I miss you terribly. Thank you for getting well and getting better everyday. I am so glad and blessed that you are my father. i would NEVER WANT ANY OTHER . I LOVE YOU. MAMA, i love you and I miss you too. i don't know what to say to you actually. but thank you for giving me life. for not aborting me 17 years ago. maybe there ar

YAY!!!! FINALLY A BETTER LOOKING BLOG!!!! CHEERS TO A GREAT 2011! :) though got it from some site. though proud to say that i din't purely uploaded it :) this has some touch of themarieltan on it :) soo OK. fail ung mga like buttons and the supposed to be. comment sections ng fb. ARRGHHH.

As how Philip Wang has inspired me... I am NOT going to make resolutions. Just conclusions. but i can't help it   Technically.. this is not a list of resolutions but rather a PLAN. like a checklist of what to do for 2011... i have less than 14 days before it is 2011. MY YEAR. so i'll just throw in what ever i think of before that. 1st. ENOUGH HUNCHBACK-YEYE. i am going to make sure my back is ALWAYS straight. i'll need this for the future. :) 2nd. BE THE DIFFERENCE that you always wanted to be. that the world needs. 3rd. LESS OF YOURSELF MORE OF OTHERS. as the movie "TRON" said it.. remove yourself from the equation ;) not EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU. BUT of course TOO MUCH HURTS NOW. 4th. I-TOLD-YOU-SO-NO-MORE. stop saying i told you so. enough proving you're right and they are wrong. ;) 5th. READ YOUR BIBLE. i PLAN to finish the bible :) it's possible! 6th. STUDY HARD! PRAY HARDER! as one of my coolest friends have written for me on my 17th birthd

yes i have been doing nothing but listening to music AND remembering a lot. well i think it's quite necessary. the year is almost over. isn't it the right time to be remembering all the good stuffs that has happened? though this song, reminds me a lot. Back to december - Taylor Swift I'm so glad you made time to see me How's life, tell me how's your family I haven't seen them in a while You've been good, busier then ever We small talk, work and the weather Your guard is up and I know why 'Cause the last time you saw me Is still burned in the back of your mind You gave me roses and I left them there to die So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night And I'd go back to december all the time It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine I'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right and I go back

i was in love. i don't know if i'm still. but it doesn't change it. i WAS in love. with you. i was  AM young. i WAS in love in the idea of love .   i know i am still. but not that much. Cause I still don't know how to act Don't know what to say Still wear the scars like it was yesterday But you're long gone and moved on Cause you're long gone But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way Still talk about you like it was yesterday But you're long gone and moved on But you're long gone, you moved on are you really long gone and moved on?  *honestly i didn't know that that is what's playing while i was typing this. the script got me into this. 

The script new album Science and Faith earned FIVE STARS from ME! :) I have never pressed Skip since it has started playing :> and that's a new for me! sometimes i get so bored midway  a new song but nope. not to this album! GOOD JOB! The Script ---- added to favorites :)

how could it be possible? after your broken forever. i have crossed out forever in my dictionary. or at least changed its meaning. a lot of guys have been saying forever to me and i never forgot that forever is not true.. and now here you are. saying forever to me again. yet i BELIEVE. without any doubt. without any delay. without anything else in mind. how is it possible that i can cross out their forevers and yet believe in YOUR forever?

yes. that is the movie of Angelina Jolie back in 2002 and no, this is not about that. Well maybe it is a little bit of that. i don't want to go anywhere near the movie because i am afraid i may not give right justice to it. so here's the thought that's been bothering me. "What really is life?" recently i have not been living my life. how can i say so.. well because i am not happy. i am happy but not as happy as i was. everything i have now is temporary. i can't feel anything permanent which is bothering me. i am preparing for the future and sometimes living in the past but never feeling i am living TODAY. i know total loser right. i am not exactly living.. i am just existing. i am so fired up for my future i don't even care for today. tomorrow is what is more important. i don't know how i ended up with this attitude but it really sucks. so, how do you really live life? what is life, really? i know it is too early for me to really know what real

David Choi tweeted this song by Peggy Lee “is that all there is?” it’s an old song which is great btw. I don’t know but the song is kind of intriguing. David Choi tweeted along with the link that it is a good song when nothing in life is impressing. Anyway, I even googled what the song really means... If you listen to it, the first stanza I understand. It’s positive. Is that all there is to a fire? But the following was confusing… Is that all there is to the greatest show on earth? is that all there is to love? is that all there is in life? I have found no answer in the reviews that people gave to the song. I have this answer that satisfied me, my answer. “Is that all there is?” YES. We never stop asking that question. We never get contented. We always want MORE. We never really get satisfied. It is a good thing, in a way, when we are stuck in a bad situation, we could always ask... "is that all there is?" Though there is someone you could never ask that. It is my dear Lo

SERIOUSLY, if i die. play this :)

Our deepest Fear - Marriane Williamson Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others. On this day of your life,  Mariel Lynne , we believe God wants you to know ... that greatness is your birthright. Who are You to shine brighter than others? Who are You to take

On this day of your life, Mariel Lynne, we believe God wants you to know ... that true faith flowers from and through doubt. If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings. If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would've been created without mind and without free will. But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord. Just look at the lives of saints, - most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that's why their faith was so strong. The path to true faith always goes through doubt. So ask those questions you've always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.

Just a thought: “Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others.” Got it from my teacher in high school. and don't you think it's absolutely right? That's why it is recommended for us to just mind ourselves and no one else. let THEM live THEIR lives. let them mind their own business. 

i am not having a good night.. my playlist is on random and on its highest volume possible. and here's what i got. You feel like you're falling backwards Like you're slippin' through the cracks Like no one would even notice If you left this town and never came back You walk outside and all you see is rain You look inside and all you feel is pain And you can't see it now [Chorus] But down the road the sun is shining In every cloud there's a silver lining Just keep holding on (just keep holding on) And every heartache makes you stronger But it won't be much longer You'll find love, you'll find peace And the you, you're meant to be I know right now that's not the way you feel But one day you will You wake up every morning and ask yourself What am I doing here anyway With the weight of all those disappointments Whispering in your ear You're just barely hanging by a thread You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath And you d

wasted. WASTE. ...... My mind is flooding of ideas about that. I am having a lot of questions now. Is there such a thing as wasted love? how about wasted time? or wasted life for an instance. And I think i may have some ideas to possible answers... WASTED TIME. ever read the quote that students love? "The time you spent wasting your time is not a wasted time" A great excuse huh? but.... "The only time wasted is the time you spent thinking you're alone" NOW WHAT'S THIS. i thought there are no wasted time. but then this another great statement says not. there IS wasted time. (sorry, doesn't make sense.. i know.) WASTED LIFE i dont really know... but i think the only wasted life are those with sad funerals. How did i come up with that. i don't know. but. don't you think so too? I know funerals are meant to be sad. But if the life was well spent there is no really regrets. Death is NATURAL. everybody will die eventually. are you followin

RANT : give Credit where Credit is due.

Christmas... what does Christmas really mean? As for a 17 year old girl, ME , Christmas is a lot like love . How so? Well love has a lot of definitions. Love is different for every person.  CHRISTMAS is not where or how you are going to spend it but rather with WHOM. That's what really matters.  I have spent 4 Christmas in a row in a foreign land with no one else but family and some friends. But you get it it's still someplace away from home. Every year i wish that i can go home for Christmas here in the Philippines. Last year was a bit different though, it was like 50-50. half wants to spend it there, half wants to spend it here. But i was happy i was able to have Christmas there. Anyway, what i am trying to say is that... after those 4 Christmas spent in a foreign land, i realized that it is not important where you are but as long as you have your loved ones with you. YOU'LL FEEL GREAT ALREADY... Every Filipino says that.... There is no BETTER CHRISTMAS than Christm

*initially wanted it to be a list of romantic comedies but i decided to just generalize it more to MOVIES :) for every movie lover like me. here's a list you might want to take a look at! Lately, I've been watching so many of these. Thanks to Torrent :P I know sorry I am doing it illegally. Anyway, thank god for  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Romantic_comedy_film  they actually have a list. From today I've decided that i will HAVE to watch all of those. and share a bit of what it has. I have already watched some of it, i'll try hard to remember what i felt, learned from them :)  BTW. i decided to include only those films from 2000 to present. i have nothing against old films but. anyway. i won't explain myself. you all don't care anyway so :) and yes. i may have to write separate posts on movies that i tremendously like! and if ever you'll be needing a top 20 or something, i can't do that. i am not good on rating things. that answers why i always ha

just a thought: isn't it rewarding when there is a chance of failure yet you succeeded? what i am trying to point out is.. we should be happy when we are given a chance to fail. Because it makes everything worth it, rewarding in the end. After we have overcome that failure there is success waiting for us. SO NEVER QUIT! be thankful that there is a chance to fail.. once you have succeeded the feeling is never the same as you just have succeeded knowing there is no chance to fail :)

Just a thought: What really matters is what the Lord thinks of you. True that living like that can be hard but think about it. If people don't get you, It's NATURAL. they don't get a lot of things. it just happens that you're one of them. BUT it is a different story if the LORD doesn't get you because he is all-knowing, HE KNOWS EVERYTHING. SO NEXT TIME YOU'RE GONNA DO SOMETHING, ask yourself. WILL THE LORD BE PLEASED IN THIS? because in the end, that IS WHAT REALLY MATTERS :)

taken from the book 365 Moments to Cherish by Robert Strand "The Better Gift" During World War II, at the Christmas season, Miss Kathryn Drummond was passing through a small Minnesota town. She observed a Red Cross bloodmobile parked before the schoolhouse and stopped to contribute a pint of blood. among the workers was a middle-aged handy-man who waited on the nurses by fetching supplies, washing utensils, and so forth. Meeting this man in the hall and assuming him to be the janitor, she commented upon the fine new school building. "No doubt you find it a great improvement over the old one," she said. He blushed like a freshman but smiled, too. "I'm a stranger here," he said. "I live in Minneapolis and travel around with this unit. You see, I'm too old to fight and too unskilled to help these doctors and nurses in any other way than this. I have great interest in collecting blood for Europe, as all my people are imperiled there."

hmm.. which one should i choose? to go or not to go? pink or violet? and so on. have you ever encountered questions like this? where the choices are equally ok for you? well not equally ok but it's like you can go with any of the two?  well i know i have. whenever i encounter this problems or situations and i can deal with both of the choice. you know what i do. FLIP ON IT. YUP. i flip a coin.  often times i follow what the coin says. but I KNOW. that life can't be dictated by the coin. so here's what i actually do. this one i actually got from a hannah montana episode where she has to choose between two GREAT boys. well the principle i have is this: flip a coin AND examine yourself. are you happy with the result? if you are then follow it! if you are not then don't. You might just be thinking right now... WHY DO I HAVE TO FLIP FOR IT IN THE FIRST PLACE if i have to follow what makes me happy? well here's the thing. we all know what we really want deep inside.