Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

yesterday while i was browsing channels on the tv, i got into this drama series.. i don't know why i didn't change the channeL.. buT there was thiS scEnE that striked me.. there was this little kid knocking the door of her mom. *i think the mom there has a cancer since she showed her hair falling and her face is so pale so like other dramas i think she have a cancer.* and her mother didn't speak she just got out..and then she asked her child if she was crying then.. the child answered.. its ok if you lock your door.. its better if you don't want me in....  but just answer me if i call you.. if i call you, you must answer me.. i get scared if you don't... hehe.. that scene left  me teary-eyed.. before if you will ask me wHat kind oF death I would  rather have.. would it be like that one me having a terrible disease and like waiting for me to die.. or the one like being shut by a bullet or something like being hit by a car.. years ago i had already chosen which type

"I want you to love me, but I dont think you will." I wander around as I repeat this to myself It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt. I'll say "I love you" to the one I love Do you love me or not? I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know! No matter how badly I desire to be with you There are many unchangeable things in this world and my love for you can't be stopped by anyone As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you I have to let you know "I want you to love me, but I don't think you will." I wander around as I repeat this to myself It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt. I'll say "I love you" to the one I love Putting these feelings into words is so scary but I'll say "I love you" to the one I love The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words That's why we can only smile Why we