Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

just like last year.... no more resolutions, just an end of the year conclusion... :) i'm still making plans for 2012 though :P To start off... 2011 was AMAZING! i'm not saying that every day was great but looking back... all i can remember is having so much fun! :) I had a lot of firsts and lasts.... first time zip lining and last trip to Doha, though I really wish not xD I don't really know how to sum this such great year with such little amount of energy that I have... so I'll just thank the people who made 2011 so amazing! They're the reason why this year has been a good one anyway... :) THANK YOU!  First of all to my Lord, Jesus Christ , for EVERYTHING :) for leading me back.. for being faithful even when I am not. I am in awe of your grace oh Lord that i can't contain it anymore I just have to overflow :) to my family, Mama , for still managing to be the best mom ever :) I love you mama, You're presence this holiday season is the best present I hav

soooo... it's days away before the much awaited 2012   but before anything else... let me take a last look on the resolutions  PLAN i had for 2011... 1st. ENOUGH HUNCHBACK-YEYE. i am going to make sure my back is ALWAYS straight. i'll need this for the future. :) -------> A TOTAL FAIL. as i am typing I'm still as hunchback as ever. xD 3/10 2nd. BE THE DIFFERENCE that you always wanted to be. that the world needs . ----> Win? I would like to believe that at 2011... I WAS DIFFERENT. good different :) 9/10 3rd. LESS OF YOURSELF MORE OF OTHERS. as the movie "TRON" said it.. remove yourself from the equation ;) not EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU. BUT of course TOO MUCH HURTS NOW. ------>   6/10 ? i can't say that i have arrived there, but am sure i'm getting there :) 4th. I-TOLD-YOU-SO-NO-MORE. stop saying i told you so. enough proving you're right and they are wrong. ;)  ------->  not because i am NOT saying it out loud doesn't mean it&#

Dear Wong Fu Productions, Happy Holidays! I hope you're not stuck in the office doing some editing and stuff :) and because you guys are the biggest lego fans that i know... I thought of you when i saw these :) I don't know for you guys, but i found this pretty exciting :) It's located at a mall here in the Philippines and I never though it was made out of lego in the first place. Especially the giant Christmas tree! the whole place was filled with legos but i was too lazy  there were lots of people having their pictures taken so i only got these.... xD BTW... PLEASE come to the Philippines! :) You can ask David on how to ooooor.... you can tell AJ to accompany you! :P  zoom view of the giant christmas tree :) Though this one is so awesome, i think your tree  is still the best... ahmm 2nd best, my mom insist on us having the best tree ever :P  You're fan, Mariel Tan, Philippines :)

another aj rafael everyone :) i want to write something good for this blog but i just don't have the energy these days and these songs manage to give the exact feeling i have lately... enjoy! When we say - AJ Rafael Somethin' bout the way Somethin' bout the way you look in my eyes You make everything so damn easy So easy that I don't got to worry about a thing And baby when we touch All I can see is the image of us Sittin' by the ocean, just before the dusk Sippin' on a juicebox, with sand between our toes And this is the part when we say we're in love And the part where we have our first kiss But this ain't a movie, I know you can't come with me You got your life, he better be treatin' you right Just tell me you don't love me Tell me you don't feel the same way that I do Tell me I don't make you smile like I do when you walk in the room You're so... so hard to let go... Oh...  [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/aj-ra

because it's this time of the year again.... and aj rafael will be coming here in the philippines in january.. but i'm still not sure if i am going xD because it's on a wednesday. She was mine - AJ Rafael ft. Jesse Barrera So I hopped on a train 3 in the afternoon I don't know when I'm coming back, but I hope that it's soon See, I never thought (I never though) That I'd have to leave your side (your side) It's only physically but know that you will be on my mind Twenty-four hours at a time Cause in my eyes, you were mine (you were mine) No matter where you go, I won't be very far Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are Cause love has no distance baby Love, love has no distance baby No, not when it comes to you and me See, she wrote me a letter, said the weather wasn't better But she said that she was doing fine "I want to see you face to face", that's what she wrote to me that day And I knew t

the band kenyo sang this at my cousin's debut :) looooove it! though their version during the party is way way better :)) they added some lyrics on the spot and it was so clever! TADHANA - Kenyo (formerly Orange and Lemons) Sino bang mapagbiro? Tadhana ba o tayo? Ewan ko, ewan ko Ewan oh ewan ko Ang gulo…ohh….ohhh Ang gulo…ohh….ohhh Ang gulo…ohh….ohhh Minsan ka lang pumorma Bigla pang uulan, Naistranded sa daan Nakalimutang tumaya bigla kang tatama Sa Lotto at sakla Minsan ka lang magsalita Biglang mauutal dila’y masasakal Sino bang mapaglaro? Tadhana ba o tayo? Ewan ko, ewan ko Ewan oh ewan ko Gumising ng maaga Todo bongga ang buhok, yun pala’y walang pasok Oh kay tagal mong tinayo Biglang magigiba, sinundan pa ng baha Kung sino pang nagmamahal Siya pang nasasaktan, lagi pang iniiwan Sino bang mapagbiro? Tadhana ba o tayo? Ewan ko ewan ko Ewan oh ewan ko Minsan ka lang lumaban Biglang mabubugbog, mukha’y lamug lamog Ang dalang mong maligo Biglang wala

Too bad i'm on my writing mood. Yesterday. I HAD THE BEST DAY EVER. i felt ALIVE. after all that has been happening... i finally felt alive. like, what i did IS MY CHOICE. WHAT I WANT. and NOT WHAT I AM EXPECTED TO DO. what happened yesterday is another blog entry. i wish i was writing about that though. instead i am here, with my dark aura typing the words that should be kept inside. why is that, after everything i have done... this is still counted as my fault? Maybe it is... but can you manage on not BLAME IT ALL ON ME? lately i am not so sure if this is what i want. if that's the life that i should have. anyway. NO ONE can make me feel down WITHOUT my permission so... I HAD THE BEST DAY YESTERDAY and NOPE you're not going to ruin that today. you can go on doing what you do but you ain't tagging me along with that.

I normally share my blog posts in facebook. but this post won't be shared. well because... i'm shy hahaha just like a 14 year old. i have a crush on someone in facebook. :P These words are not from me but this is how i feel exactly. BTW... he is the only one i do this with :) I love ‘poking’ you on Facebook. Because of you, suddenly Facebook ‘pokes’ seem less stupid. Until I met you, the ‘poke’ was just an annoying relic to which the Western world’s most mature social network seemed stubbornly to cling, an element to imagine as interesting only to ‘tweens,’ but now whenever it says you have ‘poked’ me I want to poke you back immediately. I want you to never again have to wait long for me to click ‘poke back,’ because I want you to kinda smile the way that I do and I log in and it says “[You] have poked [me],” with your name in luminous, linkable blue text to remind me that you are a real person who is thinking about me. You make me wish that there was some kind of ‘next l

Today i received the results of my NMAT. ~National Medical Admission Test~ and it is NOT AT ALL acceptable. xD i was expecting low, yes, i mean come on.. i partied (cousin's debut) the night before, woke up late on the day of the exam, was so hungry and sleepy on most parts of the exam... i did some preparations but it wasn't enough. and it reflected on my score... but i wasn't expecting this low. xD GAAAAAHHHHH. anyway. i'll shake that off. I prayed for that and I know the Lord took over. I believe this is all part of His greater plan :) BTW. today we have our passports! :) I have a good chance i'll have mico and mama over here for christmas! YAY RIGHT? SO NMAT! you're not going to take my happiness for today. I HAVE A BIGGER BRIGHT SIDE to look at :)

THE OFFICIAL themarieltan's Theme song for the holidays :) sing with meeeeee~ Home:Word -  Magnetic North & Taiyo Na ft. Sam Kang Music Video by Wong Fu Productions :)   LYRICS: I Gotta get get gotta gotta get home Hadn't thought it possible But I've forgotten my own road Thought I was so unstoppable Forgot my ego Then it topple down like dominoes A prodigal soul But now I'm running no more Took out my airbags Used to hate starin at myself, now I stare back momma push my hair back, tell me a secret You never know home baby girl till you leave it. Used to think home was a physical place A space where you live and you lay. Your head to rest and wake up on a typical day An address for you to get deliveries made But I'm home sick though In my own zipcode Wissful zoom in like a fish in a fish bowl Wishful what am I searching for I'm looking for a place where I don't search no more Tell you that I'm used to Being used to