Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

supposed to be the best the summer of my life next to summer 2013 of course.. BUT here i am.. already tired of being lazy. GAAAHHHDD 5 days of doing nothing makes my head hurt like hell. it hurts more than those crazy late nights of studying btw. frustrated. this is definitely from lack of progress. yup i've been playing sims A LOT. Loser xD anyway. for the first time.. I am in a middle of something I don't know. I am going nowhere. GAHD. I can't even think of starting my vacation because i don't know yet if i pass.. AND IF I PASS. there's still nothing to it. it's just so frustrating you know. having nothing to look forward to xD HUHUHU I WANT TO GRADUATE SO BAD.

while it didn't hit me awhile ago.. it finally did right now... "sa bawat isang tinatanggap mo... isang libo ang tinatanggihan mo" -Angel Locsin  TODAY. marks the end of my 3rd year in college. or is it? HAHA everyone's feeling sad like how we won't be able to see each other as much as we have for the past 3 years... i should feel worse in a sense because whatever happens whether i pass or not.. my days as an official thomasian just ends today.... I won't be able to see them for a long time.. the people i have spent most of my time with. The people i know God had gave me to be a constant reminder that I am where I am supposed to be. While the fact remains that this 3 years that i have spent studying may be a waste... I know oh so well that I am supposed to be here. that it wasn't a mistake... and even if it were.. IT WAS WORTH IT. Though I am very certain that I want to be a doctor... during my last days in high school i started thinking about oth

Because today i happen to just remember Janet again.. and while i don't personally know her... my heart really aches for her.... I just end up in tears for every time.. I LOVE YOU JANET! I AM PRAYING FOR YOU! :) you'll find your match soon! :)

by Rachel Lampa  So unlike me, what's going on I'm usually not the one To be afraid, hesitate, second guess What I've done Am I overthinking it, complicating it Should I let go and let it be Never done this before how am I supposed to know where to go from here No prescription, no rules, no direction, no signs that will make it clear Like the first man on the moon, Columbus 1492 Like baby steps and babies don't worry, so why should I Uncharted territory Uncharted territory Sort of unprepared, just a little scared Say go get it girl, grab a hold of it Look inside myself Find buried deep Patience don't give up on me Am I overthinkin' it, complicating it All I gotta do is do it

FOR MY DEDDY.*you know with an accent * and i guess for everyone else who might just need this :) I KNOW.  it's hard. and there's nothing i can say to make it easier for you....  i know you've heard it all before... BUT LET ME JUST SAY IT TO YOU AGAIN... :) 2 Timothy 1:7 "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of POWER, and of love, and of a sound mind" Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.   Philippians 4:6-7   Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. i know it is easier said than done... i know you can't see it so clear right now... BUT THAT'S EXACTLY THE POINT! Romans 8:24-25  For in this hope we were sav

i know i shouldn't be worrying about this one.. i shouldn't even be typing right now... i shouldn't even be awake at this hour. BUT :) i can't help it.. i'm thinking of... a good way to end things... you know like a tag phrase or whatever... just like how ryan higa has TEEHEE or Donna Bartolome (who i just found out about today. she's so pretty. sigh..) xD :)) has "Peace around the world and on its axis" or Chelsea Kane has Peace, Love, sparkles or David Choi has PEACE! or Natalie Tran has BYE! or D-Trix has You mean Like THIS?! or Kuya Patch has 2GBTG I WANT TO HAVE ONE LIKE THAT AS WELL... xD so far.. all i could come up is.... Still here. hahahaha i know right. stupid exit phrase :))

here i am swallowing whatever it is that needed to be swallowed and saying what's really up. why on a blog post? just because! idreallykwhy. and it took me a lot of courage just to make sure you're going to be able to read this so... i expect something in return. xD like ahmm a reply? THANK YOU! ;) and mke it easier please. xD ang hirap lang kasi nito.. idk why i didn't just message you with this and still decided on posting this here but eto na eh so xD :)) why can't you just say what you mean? or is that what you mean.... i thought we got past this already.. yet here we are again. not saying the things that are needed to be said or at least the things we wanted to say. xD I'd be lying if i am to say I am COMPLETELY over it. because after years, you are still one of the persons that comes into mind whenever i hear the word LOVE. I know that's not fair because after all.. haha but seriously.. i compare every guy who comes along to you... and somehow i am still

seriously. what's up? here i am already full but can't help to get some more. i want to be the girl who says whatever she wants to say, whatever she needs to say... i don't know what to do anymore. I am falling apart. I have a sick dad thousand miles away from me, I have 2 pre-finals and 2 quizzes tomorrow and that's just the beginning, the next weeks will be a lot harder than for my acads... I have a big decision to make that would affect everything... I know i should have had made my decision.. i thought i had BUT BUT BUT. yeah that big BUT. My prof told us that if we are doubting that means we are doing something wrong... because if we are doing the right thing there should be no doubts... sometimes, most of the time, i just want to break down and scream... "LORD, TAKE ME!" please. please please. just take me... xD but at the end of the day... it's still going to be up to me.. so i say... I AM CHOOSING TO BE BETTER. I am going to take it day