Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

just like last year.... no more resolutions, just an end of the year conclusion... :) i'm still making plans for 2012 though :P To start off... 2011 was AMAZING! i'm not saying that every day was great but looking back... all i can remember is having so much fun! :) I had a lot of firsts and lasts.... first time zip lining and last trip to Doha, though I really wish not xD I don't really know how to sum this such great year with such little amount of energy that I have... so I'll just thank the people who made 2011 so amazing! They're the reason why this year has been a good one anyway... :) THANK YOU!  First of all to my Lord, Jesus Christ , for EVERYTHING :) for leading me back.. for being faithful even when I am not. I am in awe of your grace oh Lord that i can't contain it anymore I just have to overflow :) to my family, Mama , for still managing to be the best mom ever :) I love you mama, You're presence this holiday season is the best present I hav...

soooo... it's days away before the much awaited 2012   but before anything else... let me take a last look on the resolutions  PLAN i had for 2011... 1st. ENOUGH HUNCHBACK-YEYE. i am going to make sure my back is ALWAYS straight. i'll need this for the future. :) -------> A TOTAL FAIL. as i am typing I'm still as hunchback as ever. xD 3/10 2nd. BE THE DIFFERENCE that you always wanted to be. that the world needs . ----> Win? I would like to believe that at 2011... I WAS DIFFERENT. good different :) 9/10 3rd. LESS OF YOURSELF MORE OF OTHERS. as the movie "TRON" said it.. remove yourself from the equation ;) not EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU. BUT of course TOO MUCH HURTS NOW. ------>   6/10 ? i can't say that i have arrived there, but am sure i'm getting there :) 4th. I-TOLD-YOU-SO-NO-MORE. stop saying i told you so. enough proving you're right and they are wrong. ;)  ------->  not because i am NOT saying it out loud doesn't mean it...

Dear Wong Fu Productions, Happy Holidays! I hope you're not stuck in the office doing some editing and stuff :) and because you guys are the biggest lego fans that i know... I thought of you when i saw these :) I don't know for you guys, but i found this pretty exciting :) It's located at a mall here in the Philippines and I never though it was made out of lego in the first place. Especially the giant Christmas tree! the whole place was filled with legos but i was too lazy  there were lots of people having their pictures taken so i only got these.... xD BTW... PLEASE come to the Philippines! :) You can ask David on how to ooooor.... you can tell AJ to accompany you! :P  zoom view of the giant christmas tree :) Though this one is so awesome, i think your tree  is still the best... ahmm 2nd best, my mom insist on us having the best tree ever :P  You're fan, Mariel Tan, Philippines :)

another aj rafael everyone :) i want to write something good for this blog but i just don't have the energy these days and these songs manage to give the exact feeling i have lately... enjoy! When we say - AJ Rafael Somethin' bout the way Somethin' bout the way you look in my eyes You make everything so damn easy So easy that I don't got to worry about a thing And baby when we touch All I can see is the image of us Sittin' by the ocean, just before the dusk Sippin' on a juicebox, with sand between our toes And this is the part when we say we're in love And the part where we have our first kiss But this ain't a movie, I know you can't come with me You got your life, he better be treatin' you right Just tell me you don't love me Tell me you don't feel the same way that I do Tell me I don't make you smile like I do when you walk in the room You're so... so hard to let go... Oh...  [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/aj-ra...

because it's this time of the year again.... and aj rafael will be coming here in the philippines in january.. but i'm still not sure if i am going xD because it's on a wednesday. She was mine - AJ Rafael ft. Jesse Barrera So I hopped on a train 3 in the afternoon I don't know when I'm coming back, but I hope that it's soon See, I never thought (I never though) That I'd have to leave your side (your side) It's only physically but know that you will be on my mind Twenty-four hours at a time Cause in my eyes, you were mine (you were mine) No matter where you go, I won't be very far Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are Cause love has no distance baby Love, love has no distance baby No, not when it comes to you and me See, she wrote me a letter, said the weather wasn't better But she said that she was doing fine "I want to see you face to face", that's what she wrote to me that day And I knew t...

the band kenyo sang this at my cousin's debut :) looooove it! though their version during the party is way way better :)) they added some lyrics on the spot and it was so clever! TADHANA - Kenyo (formerly Orange and Lemons) Sino bang mapagbiro? Tadhana ba o tayo? Ewan ko, ewan ko Ewan oh ewan ko Ang gulo…ohh….ohhh Ang gulo…ohh….ohhh Ang gulo…ohh….ohhh Minsan ka lang pumorma Bigla pang uulan, Naistranded sa daan Nakalimutang tumaya bigla kang tatama Sa Lotto at sakla Minsan ka lang magsalita Biglang mauutal dila’y masasakal Sino bang mapaglaro? Tadhana ba o tayo? Ewan ko, ewan ko Ewan oh ewan ko Gumising ng maaga Todo bongga ang buhok, yun pala’y walang pasok Oh kay tagal mong tinayo Biglang magigiba, sinundan pa ng baha Kung sino pang nagmamahal Siya pang nasasaktan, lagi pang iniiwan Sino bang mapagbiro? Tadhana ba o tayo? Ewan ko ewan ko Ewan oh ewan ko Minsan ka lang lumaban Biglang mabubugbog, mukha’y lamug lamog Ang dalang mong maligo Biglang wala...

Too bad i'm on my writing mood. Yesterday. I HAD THE BEST DAY EVER. i felt ALIVE. after all that has been happening... i finally felt alive. like, what i did IS MY CHOICE. WHAT I WANT. and NOT WHAT I AM EXPECTED TO DO. what happened yesterday is another blog entry. i wish i was writing about that though. instead i am here, with my dark aura typing the words that should be kept inside. why is that, after everything i have done... this is still counted as my fault? Maybe it is... but can you manage on not BLAME IT ALL ON ME? lately i am not so sure if this is what i want. if that's the life that i should have. anyway. NO ONE can make me feel down WITHOUT my permission so... I HAD THE BEST DAY YESTERDAY and NOPE you're not going to ruin that today. you can go on doing what you do but you ain't tagging me along with that.

I normally share my blog posts in facebook. but this post won't be shared. well because... i'm shy hahaha just like a 14 year old. i have a crush on someone in facebook. :P These words are not from me but this is how i feel exactly. BTW... he is the only one i do this with :) I love ‘poking’ you on Facebook. Because of you, suddenly Facebook ‘pokes’ seem less stupid. Until I met you, the ‘poke’ was just an annoying relic to which the Western world’s most mature social network seemed stubbornly to cling, an element to imagine as interesting only to ‘tweens,’ but now whenever it says you have ‘poked’ me I want to poke you back immediately. I want you to never again have to wait long for me to click ‘poke back,’ because I want you to kinda smile the way that I do and I log in and it says “[You] have poked [me],” with your name in luminous, linkable blue text to remind me that you are a real person who is thinking about me. You make me wish that there was some kind of ‘next l...

Today i received the results of my NMAT. ~National Medical Admission Test~ and it is NOT AT ALL acceptable. xD i was expecting low, yes, i mean come on.. i partied (cousin's debut) the night before, woke up late on the day of the exam, was so hungry and sleepy on most parts of the exam... i did some preparations but it wasn't enough. and it reflected on my score... but i wasn't expecting this low. xD GAAAAAHHHHH. anyway. i'll shake that off. I prayed for that and I know the Lord took over. I believe this is all part of His greater plan :) BTW. today we have our passports! :) I have a good chance i'll have mico and mama over here for christmas! YAY RIGHT? SO NMAT! you're not going to take my happiness for today. I HAVE A BIGGER BRIGHT SIDE to look at :)

THE OFFICIAL themarieltan's Theme song for the holidays :) sing with meeeeee~ Home:Word -  Magnetic North & Taiyo Na ft. Sam Kang Music Video by Wong Fu Productions :)   LYRICS: I Gotta get get gotta gotta get home Hadn't thought it possible But I've forgotten my own road Thought I was so unstoppable Forgot my ego Then it topple down like dominoes A prodigal soul But now I'm running no more Took out my airbags Used to hate starin at myself, now I stare back momma push my hair back, tell me a secret You never know home baby girl till you leave it. Used to think home was a physical place A space where you live and you lay. Your head to rest and wake up on a typical day An address for you to get deliveries made But I'm home sick though In my own zipcode Wissful zoom in like a fish in a fish bowl Wishful what am I searching for I'm looking for a place where I don't search no more Tell you that I'm used to Being used to...

SO HERE IT IS. :) finally i have the leisure of time to actually sit and write the things I've been wanting to say since going home from the Saved Festival :) Saved Festival is  An annual God-centered festival where people from all over the world will travel far and wide to witness the great gathering of united Filipino believers in Jesus Christ!   from the official Saved Festival  page :) The participating musicians of the so-called festival was Gary V *the only artist i actually know*, Quest, Jodi King, Sideshow, Parachute, Martin Smith of Delirious, Starfield and Citipointe... YUP IT REALLY WAS A FESTIVAL :)  even though days have passed since the festival, believe it or not, as i am typing now, i still have this excitement , joy , love.  SO, when I received an SMS from a churchmate, ate jez, who BTW recently passed the LET and is now a licensed teacher :P , inviting people to go to the festival i don't know why but i just said yes...

I have lots of things to say/share but i have quizzes tomorrow and as usual i'm still not done studying xD so this will have to do for now. :) besides i don't have classes on Tuesdays and it is a HOLIDAY on Wednesday.. so NEW POST SOON :)  THE FOLLOWING IS A REPOST FROM DAVID CHOI :)  “One of the deepest and core issues every single human being deals with is insecurity. It’s a powerful force that needs to be pinned to the ground and beaten to a bloody pulp. How do you conquer insecurity? Strive to become the best version of yourself in all areas of your life - mentally, physically, and spiritually. One small step at a time. The past does NOT equal your future. Refuse to allow your present circumstances push you to the ground. Once you’ve destroyed the thought of insecurity, a heavy burden will be lifted from your shoulders and you will see the world in a whole new light.”

it's 4:00 AM. i have to wake up in approximately 4 hours. yet here i am typing. well you know that quote that says... “Those who  mind  don't matter, and  those who matter  don't  mind .”  i am kind of having that situation right now. It's no big deal if you look at it in some angle but it is one if taken at another. so let me just say this once and for all. Honestly, i don't really care for that person. i don't care who he likes or who he goes out with. as long as , i see my picture still there i am contented. but not only did he removed it but he also deleted me. now that is another story. is he someone? but i am sure he is not. i always listed him under the guys who won't get serious even after marriage. but for that girl he gave up everything? i feel really insecure. but then again. i'm fine. knowing that the reason he or should i say she deleted me is because i was a threat. so thank you. for making me feel pretty haha and btw. she is really pr...

Tomatoes and melons by  PAULO COELHO  on  NOVEMBER 5, 2011 If tomatoes wanted to be melons, they would look completely ridiculous. I am always amazed that so many people are concerned with wanting to be what they are not; what’s the point of making yourself look ridiculous? You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, there’s no need to prove all the time that everything is going well, you shouldn’t be concerned about what other people are thinking, cry if you need to, it’s good to cry out all your tears (because only then will you be able to smile again).

Day 30 - Top Five Favorite Song Lyrics No i'm not lucky, i'm blessed YES It's better to say too much than to never say what you need to say These are common road rules, we should take it slowly. So before you use words like 'Love', just let me speak I won't go another day without you Mistaken, Misplaced, Misunderstood

Day 29 - Top Five Biggest Guilty Pleasures CLOTHES. shoes bags BOOKS. pens. :P

Day 28 - Top Five Favorite TV Shows HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER Glee Heroes Cribs Disney

Day 27 - Top Five Most Annoying Things About Yourself I never get fat. yes it's annoying. because. i want some flesh in me.   my nose. pimples super lazy diesel engined. 

Day 26 - Top Five Most Useful Inventions PHOTOCOPYING MACHINE  INTERNET! Camera Airplanes Cellphones

Day 25 - Top Five Products You Most Desire New lens for my camera.  iphone4 WHITE ;) ate's digi cam will do :P  New tv set and everything here in my room CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHES and shoes. and bags. :P 

Day 24 - Top Five Things You Do During “Me-Time” SLEEEEEEEEPPPPP EAT A LOOOOT SHOPPING TAKE A SUPPPPEEERRR LONG BATH  Listen to good music/ read a good book/ watch an awesome movie

Day 23 - Top Five Worst Teachers You’ve Ever Had since i'm still in school i won't say their names :)) ma'am Chemistry in highschool. Sir Org Chem. Sir Botany ma'am asian history sir theo 1 

Day 22 - Top Five Sexiest People Ever (Dead Or Alive) Nick Jonas Matthew Goode. Mark Salling My new love. Freddie Highmore.  Gerard Butler

Day 21 - Top Five Movies You Quote Constantly YAY! I LOVE QUOTES! I LOVE MOVIES! :) "if you tell yourself you feel fine, you will." - My Sister's keeper  "Little did he know. That means there's something he doesn't know, which means there's something you don't know, did you know that?" - Stranger than Fiction "If you just let me, I know i will surprise you" - Date Night "Someone once said, live everyday as if it were your last cause one of these days its gonna be." - Life or something like it   See? I already knew boys were from a different planet. They're infuriating. They say one thing and mean another. And they act like they like you and then they just ignore you.  Then out of the blue, they decide they want to move to New Zealand. - Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging

This project is long overdue. I started this last summer. I finished the book last summer though, but i never quite finished sharing the things i learned from the book here in my blog. I promised myself that this sem break i will finally finish it. I've been putting it off for weeks now. Now I know why. Because somehow, I know I won't be able to share exactly what each chapter in the book says without copying every word in it. Rick Warren has written a really good book, that sharing it here is not just enough. I really recommend that you start reading it, if you haven't :) BTW here is the link to my unfinished project. I guess it would count as a teaser or trailer of what's in store if ever you're thinking of reading the book. It's a 40 day journey and here are the first 10 :)  http://someoneyouwillneverbe.blogspot.com/search/label/PDL

Day 20 - Top Five Most Annoying Celebrities CHARICE PEMPENGCO. sorry. i know she's a REALLY GOOD singer. I love her voice. but i dont why i can't watch her sing. i just can't i just rip her music and forget that it's hers.  Lovi Poe. i dont like how she talks. a real person doesn't talk like that Gretchen Barretto. I love her red stilettos though :P  Lady Gaga.  Lindsay Lohan

Day 19 - Top Five Favorite Sandwiches CHEESE Sandwich :) CHOCOLATE Sandwich.  Peanut Butter Sandwich Egg Sandwich Tuna Sandwich 

Day 18 - Top Five Favorite Sports Basketball Tennis Track and Field (because it involves javelin throw) Gymnastics badminton (because out of all the sports in this list, this is the only one i could actually be good at)

Day 17 - Top Five Favorite Things To Do Where You Live i dont really have favorite things to do from where i live but to just stay in my room. and most of the time i enjoy it so... see you tomorrow :P

Day 16 - Top Five Things In Life You’d Like An Explanation For Why did he stopped talking to me. Why i don't have a __________ - it's not a thing i promise.  Why our curriculum is like that. Why is my nose like this? Why is Justin Bieber famous?

Day 15 - Day Fifteen: Top Five Favorite Beverages Fruit Shakes Iced Tea Frap - Cream based :P Cocktails WATER of course :P

Day 14 - Top Five Things You’d Do If You Had Magical Abilities Create a youtube video :P  If its invisibility --- i would go to mega and stare at him for hours... :) :P If its time travelling --- i would go back to August 13, yes the day of my debut. :) If its flying --- i would always fly to doha AFTER school :)) or ok during weekends BEING ABLE TO FLY IS REALLY AWESOME! i wont haave to ride the lrt again etc etc. gosh i'm excited! i can earn lots of money with it :P 

Day 13 - Top Five Dream Jobs! Pediatric Oncologist :) Mech Eng? Designer MODEL Mother? :P

Day 12 - Top Five trends/styles you abhor now abhor is such a huge term.. lets just say i don't follow :) What are the trends now btw? :)) oohhh.. The like my status thing. in facebook.  getting pregnant? Public display of affection?  I CANT REALLY ANSWER :)) i don't follow much trends and so, I DONT KNOW THE TRENDS :)) 

Day 11 - Top five languages you wish you were fluent in KOREAN! Chinese  Japanese French Spanish?

Day 10 - Top Five Reasons You Feel The Way You Do Right Now i'm alone i dont have anything to do actually i have a lot of number 2 but i dont know how to do all those stuff the future's coming too fast stress. 

There’s always something different about Saturday nights for me. I don’t know why. especially now that I am on my semestral break and everyday feels like a Saturday, this night remains DIFFERENT. Today is the day that MYuste is scheduled to crash because of the intense traffic it would get from thomasians wanting to see their grades. * I didn’t want to just say that today is grade giving day* HAHA BACK TO MY GRADES.. well they are the LOWEST I got so far. and though its hard to be thankful about it.. I AM. THANK YOU LORD FOR ALL YOU’VE DONE. This sem the Lord just taught me that I can’t do things on my own. I ALWAYS NEED HIM. And he taught me that WHATEVER happens he’ll be with me. Though of course, the Lord is just. I reap what I sow and here are the fruits of my actions. I know ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD to those who love him and I believe that this low grades that I have, that might hinder me from achieving my future endeavors, is just a way of teaching me a lesson I wo...

Day 9 - Top Five People you'd like to kill *but no means to, just so we're clear... the people causing war in mindanao.  Corrupt officials overly annoying people unreasonable, selfish bitches. snatchers, robbers and the like. 

So today, I spent the WHOLE DAY with my bestest friends :) Photo by: Hannah Shayne From left: Me, Virnalyn, Hannah, Mikki The MEGA Mall had a sale today, and we decided to shop together! YAY! Much as i would LOVE to tell you how our shopping day went down and what we got after, i'm not that kind of girl. and this is not just the right blog, if you're looking for those. anyway what i really wanted to tell is how i found my new meant to be :) so far he's MTB #3 :)) So i've had this thing with my eye for a while. I looked out for my symptoms in the net and the most matched disease is allergic conjunctivitis. The treatment for which is antihistamines. and indeed when i took that it relieved me of my eye problem for about 24 hours. So why am i telling you this? I promise it will all tie down eventually. :) Last night, i wasn't able to take my meds. And as a result, when we were shopping my eyes are starting to get itchy and all. So i decided to just buy the an...

Day 8 - Top five BIGGEST Fictional Crushes EDWARD CULLEN! INUYASHA! TED MOSBY! - he's the closest to reality so far. hahaha Domyouji Tsukasa,  Dao Ming Si, or Gu Jun Pyo - anyone of the 3 would do. :P Jacob Black. 

Day 7 - Top Five Favorite Historical Figures *to start i don't really enjoy history... Jesus - no questions on this one. Steve Jobs Cory and Ninoy Aquino -  never really been a fan but they really deserve to be on every Filipino's  favorite historical figures Jose Rizal - the only Filipino hero i really had the opportunity to know very well. Lapu-Lapu - the only one who won against the spaniards... after his win, it topok so long for the filipinos to win again. 

Day 6 - Top five things that happened to you this past year i turned 18! I spent my summer vacation at doha! ironically, years ago, i really hated spending my summer vacation there.  I MET DAVID CHOI! we have a new family picture. granted that it is hard to have my complete family in one place. the last one before this year was Christmas 2009. had some chances.

Day 5 - Top five places you'd like to live PHILIPPINES! QATAR! somewhere near the beach. somewhere near EVERYWHERE. i mean the mall, workplace, school, etc. Canada?

soo… for my 18th birthday, I had a little guestbook and one my friends, wrote me this… He purposely didn’t want me to understand it that’s why he wrote it in korean. and the words are in Filipino. I am aware that somehow… my posts are being read in korea.. and I need some help! IF ANYONE could just help me put this in the english alphabet it would be AWESOME! THANKS in advance!

Day 4 - Top Five Favorite Things on the Internet i'll assume this means web sites... facebook twitter google reader yahoo! mail OF COURSE.... Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess - someoneyouwillneverbe.blogspot.com

Day 3 - Top Five Names you wish you were yours *to begin with, i love my name already but... something with Lois, or Louise wouldn't be so bad... my siblings has those names and i'm the ONLY ONE with Lynne, which is my mother's name so it's ok  MAYA KIBBLE - nick jonas's bestfriend... even if i dont get to be her, at least we will have the same name. and i'm already ok with that.  Alexandra - Just thought of this now, but it's not so bad right? Something with CHA - i dont know its just a reaaly good nickname :)) Francheska - my supposed to be name. 

Day 2 - Top Five Favorite Books Twilight saga - every single book, i LOVE. if i had to choose one it will be.... *this is really hard* New moon?  THE BIBLE - just so you know the list is not in order or anything ok?  Purpose driven life - if you haven't read it yet, read it. you'll definitely know why it has to be on this list. Chicken Soup for *everybody* - haha because there are just too many chicken soups and i like them all! I kissed dating goodbye. 

because I said in my post yesterday, that I will start writing tomorrow, which is today. but things came up so I wasn’t able to. yes I’m calling it a night. I know, it’s quite early than my usual's but my eyes are stubborn tonight and I think it has reached its limits. soo.. I’ll just kick off the start of my semestral break with this. FIRST BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE, THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING WITH ME THROUGH OUT THE SEM. I LOVE YOU! soooo HERE IT IS! 30 days challenge PART TWO – TOP FIVE! *YYYAAAAAYYYYYYY* DAY 1! Top Five FAVORITE excuses … 1. I’m too tired 2. I’m lazy 3. I’m too busy 4. I’m scared 5. I’m ok

had this story for a while now. Actually, It is not the perfect time for me to sit down like this on my laptop because I still have comprehensive exams tomorrow. Nevertheless, I couldn’t contain it any longer. If you know me well, you would know that I don’t exactly know how to cross the street. I know it’s kind of hard to believe knowing that I don’t have a private transportation, and of course crossing the streets is inevitable, I should have learned it by now. BUT it’s true. I don’t exactly know how. AS A MATTER OF FACT, whenever I cross the street, even though it’s the same streets everyday, I can always imagine myself being hit by a car. I don’t know if I’m just too bored or too happy with my life that whenever I cross the street I imagine myself dying from it. I would always always always see myself, like how you would see it in the movies. I thought to myself, if I’m going to die because I’m not smart enough to properly cross the street better have it in style right? so ...