nO regreTs.. jusT lessOnsSs leaRned.. :D

i just finished watching the latest drama that maDe my heart skipped a beat and i am so sad but at the same time feeling so kiLig about iT and actually wanting the same happily ever after in iT.. bUt nOw i am jusT so noT feeliNg it aNd this feeling forced me to do this...

supposedly i am to enjoy this moment and sleep happily but because of this it ruined my moment so i am really frustrated and finally realized i am at this ENOUGH. i have finally reached ENOUGH.. its actually great that i can finally describe what ENOUGH feels like.. ow wait i canT.. :D

i've been planning to do this for a long time now but today i really felt the need to do it NOW. its not that i am giving up 'coz really i dont wanna put it in my nature. lets just say i'm doing this because i came to love myself more than i love you. *and yes i do love you*

this one is worse than the previous one we had. coz this time i really kept my hopes high. i really want to see what will happen in the future. i was really excited about it. i have somehow imagined my future with you in it. but i guess i can forget it now. nOw that i know those things are not going to happen

i know why this one hurts very much and that is beacause i believed every single promise you left me. i really thought that forever does exist... i was really positive about this. you even said there is this 100% for us to really end up together....i told you to leave out the 1% and what do we have today my 1%... wOw.. out of 99% chances of us being together.. the 1% happenned.. wOw..

i have so mucH more to say.. but i just have to enD it right away.. i'lL just add more later :D all i am wanting to say is.. lets be friends.! its not that i dont love you anymore i still do and nothing has changed its just that i have grown to love myself more than i love you. *again with that excuse line:D* and i am still hoping that you can go to my debut.! thats the only promise you have left that you can fulfill now.! i have lots more to say to you and this aint gonna be like the last time i'LL be able to say those so.. i am gonna leave it here..! and yeaH i wrote a couple of blogs about you and it'll be a waste if i wouldnt give you at least a chance for you to read those so.. *but its ok if you wont read them.. idc.. :P*

and one more thing.. if theres still a chance lets just continue our love story some other time! and my door is always open for you! i am not actually ending everything here coz that will be like running away to everything i am feeling so i wont do that.! i am never gonna run away.. *aheM.! fasLangera* gooDluck.! yngaT na lang.! wag magpapakamataY ah.! LOL

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