Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

and finally a blog -august 24, 2010 i was thinking of saying this instead of just writing it, but i realized that writing it may be a better idea. people will have more of a choice to read this or not and by that they have a choice of knowing my story or not. i'm done being 16. whew that happened so fast. loooking back at everything that happened all i can say is I HAD A LOT. my 16th birthday was definitely memorable. in other countries sweet 16 means a new car or a great party, my sweet 16 was well... not even close. not even close to close. :)) we just ate pizza @ a fastfood. yeah and that's it. and yeah i received a package from my parents which pretty much contained ensure. HAHA so yeah. anyway you get it. it was a loser birthday celebration. my memories as 16 was filled with STRESS. talk about no weekends for me. SUPER LOSER. at 16 i had a LOT. and by a lot i mean, i cried a LOT, laughed a LOT, learned a LOT, grew a LOT. i didn't just grew taller :D older but i also ...

i specially posted this here because i know someone who never fail to read my blogs here :) khit na iniwan na ng lahat ng tao ang friendster.. i am sure that my blog will still reach at least one person :) to my avid supporter MY DAD :) i have always wondered why we celebrate mother's day or father's day. i mean why can't be there children's day? hahaha and maybe now, i know the answer :> it is because being a mother or a father.. is life's ultimatum :> it is the climax when a man becomes a father… maybe that’s why they deserve a day in our calendar for the whole world to celebrate - and to my rant about children not having their day? I’ve realized that to our parents... it’s ALWAYS our day… What makes a father the best DADDY in the world? –because anyone can be a father but it takes a REAL man to be a DADDY :>- if he can make time for his kids? If he can watch their games? If he is able to provide them? MAYBE. But there is a sure way on how ...

so today.. fiesta ng malanday... and as christians.. we are not suppose to participate in it! coz fiestas here are for the saints and as said in the bible it is wrong to eat something that is offered to something else.. i know this one clearly since i just read it a few days back. so here's the story: of course all of our christian friends and family who are in malanday knows it's wrong to participate.. but guess what! we had attended a lot of celebration today.. in malanday..... the first one.. they said that it's not fiesta since it is "welcoming party" for a balikbayan churchmate... so ok.. the next one *i didn't went here but mama did* "dedication of a baby" so ok... and now for our relatives... "family reunion DAW" like HAHAHAHAHA coincidence much? :)))))) they know that it is bad to participate in the fiesta but what is this?! everyone's house is like celebrating it.! what?! idk.. i'm just wondering.... earlier before i wr...

i got it from my devotional book :> Some people are "gifted" lovers. They know how to make folks around them feel love, especially the love of Christ. The principles are the same in families as well as in churches or anyplace people meet. LOVERS smile a lot. Something caring and contagious flows through them. It's inviting, warm, gentle and kind. LOVERS treat you as someone really special. Warmth and welcome quickly turn into  genuine friendship. They like you as a wonderful person and do not hesitate to say so. LOVERS' faces light up every time they see you. Their hugs, handshakes, and personal words make you feel totally accepted. Quickly they invite you into their conversation, group or home. Instinctively you know that you have a place in their hearts. LOVERS make knowing Jesus and living in Him so attractive. If coming close to Him is something like coming close to them, it has to be wonderful. LOVERS know God. You sense that they tap in the true source of lov...

mY 4th yr project in values.. as i remember it.. our teacher asked us to choose which philosophy is best applied in our lives.. and this is how i did it! :)) --- HAHAHA ANG HABA PALA XD --- I, my self, prefer to be more of a realist. Realism is seeing things as what they truly are. It is not wrong to dream and to create a vision of what you want to be or how things you want to be in the future but being able to see the true value of a certain object is, to what I believe, is a blessing. I once read in a book, though it is only in the writer’s opinion, it says that when you die you will not actually go to this “paradise” but instead God will give you the chance for Him to explain your life and that will be the greatest gift you can ever receive. I believe in that. That being able to see the real meaning why you have met this certain someone, experienced this certain situation and felt those certain feelings will be the best reward one can ever receive. Through realism, we can achieve th...

HAHA whaT mariel means by urban dictionary XD SUPER LOL A girl that is very spontaneous that always has some amazing advise to give. She'll always be there even if she has something better to do. Basically the best person you can meet in life. =] also, very talented. "Dangggggg that Mariel girl has got it going on!!!" Not, as said by other people, a slut, but in fact a highly intelligent, sarcastic, virgin. They frequently sigh at the stupidity that they are surrounded with Jazz: I dont dress slutty, i get all A's, AND my IQ is 120 Ho: Psshaw! Your SUCH a Mariel. Im going to go have sex with 10 diffrent guys then fail all my tests and repeat the grade! A dumbass who has no idea what is going on around her (or him but that would be weird) Mariel thought there was fifty-one states yesterday, so i slapped her and she shut up.

recentLy.. a classmate asked me.. how can i keep believing ins something that i don't see.. in something that is not yet proven.. and i answered him.. isn't that what faith means? HAHA by that answer i thought i knew totally what faith is.. :) i am so caught up with the ideas of destiny, meant to be's that in everything i do... i believe that it was part of my "preordained" future. i know i make my own future... yet i would like to believe that there is a force that keeps leading me to a certain future.. something i never thought of yet becoming... until.. i noticed that i was using the idea of destiny as an excuse.. i am always fond of quoting "whats meant to be will always find its way!" just because i'm afraid of the consequences of my choices.. in being so caught up in destiny i was being afraid of the results of my own choices.. i was being afraid of making a choice... while on a ride i was thinking... how would we know that the things that we d...

*late publish sorry XD* "Our GOAL is to PLEASE GOD in everything we do. It makes no difference whether anyone applauds our action or not. We are called to be FAITHFUL, not famous." 1. make up your mind to be happy. learn to find pleasure in simple things. 2. make the best of your circumstances. no one has everything, and everyone has something of sorrow intermingled with gladness of life. the trick is to make the laughter outweigh the tears. 3. dont take yourself too seriously. dont think that somehow you should  be protected from misfortune that befalls other people 4. you cant please everybody. dont let criticism worry you. 5. dont let your neighbor set your standards. be yourself. 6. do the thing s you enjoy doing but stay out of debt. 7. never borrow trouble. imaginary things are harder to bear than real ones. 8. have many interests. if you cant travel, read about new places. 9. dont hold postmortems. dont spend your time brooding over sorrows or mistakes. dont be one who...

BLOG!!!!! for the first day of february.. BTW i missed PE today.. coz i'M uber tired.. that i needed rest BADLY.. so there.. so GAME! i'Ve been receiving much loVe lately.. eii not love-love but LOVE :) *i hope you get it* Everybody wants to be loved.. i mean who doesn't? i personally believe that the greatest gift that God gave us is to be able to love.. and be loved in return.. And now i can almost agree that i am at the peak of that! i am receiving much love from my family and friends that i feel like there's nothing more that can add up to that! I should be super happy now right? but NOT! coz' here's the thing... i've been receiving much love that i'm scared i can't respond to all of them.. i have so much on my plate right now.. that i am afraid i am not going to finish everything... i have so much love that i don't know what to do with them... you know what.. after deep thinking.. i'Ve realized something... THE GREAT THINGS IN LIFE ARE F...

YAY!!! this yeaR flew by sO fast! almosT didn'T felT it.. excepT of course for all the dramas and blessings i had :) and yeaaaahhhhhh it's as if i just wrote my last year's year-ender blog and now here i am with another year-ender blog! hahaha ok.. GAME! for this year... i wanna end it by writing everything that had happened to me this year! :) hoping i wouldn'T miss one! :) well at least the major events! JANUARY *and yeah this is how it's going down* ------ birthday ni kua!!! though nothing happened :)) haha i canT remember anything on my january... ooooohhhhh but yeah we're still together!!! haha LOL we are still super happy last january.. i think :)) and yeaHhhh PSD got us a new room!! waaaahhh i miss beryl XD and yeaH i think this was the time i got into the top 10 again :)) LOL AND how can i forget! NEW YEAR'S EVE *day* we, with family, had this meeting thing and we all ended up crying :)) HAHAHA mico started crying and everyone else followed :)) wahah...

GOT IT FROM JOYCE NOELLE PARAISO :) hehe pacopy ha? :) RULE 1 You can only say Guilty or Innocent. RULE 2 You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks! (So people reading this, if you want an explanation, comment.) Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens. Kissed one of your Facebook friends? ~GUILTY Danced on a table in a bar? ~INNOCENT Ever told a lie? ~GUILTY Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back? ~GUILTY Ever kissed someone of the same sex? ~guilty XD Kissed a picture? ~GUILTY Slept in until 5 PM? ~INNOCENT Fallen asleep at work/school? ~GUILTY Held a snake? ~INNOCENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Been suspended from school? ~GUILTY :)) Worked at a fast food restaurant? ~INNOCENT Been fired from a job? ~INNOCENT Done something you regret? ~GUILTY! Laughed unt...

i got it from my mama :P yellow - funny XD pink - agree! red - strongly agree! 1. liFe isn't fair buT it's stiLL good 2. wHen in douBT jusT taKe tHe nexT smaLL steP 3. Life is tOo sHort to wasTe time haTing anyone! :P 4. job wont take care of you whne you are sick. your friends and parents will. stay in touch 5. pay off your credit cards every month 6. you dont have to win every argument. agree to disagree 7. cry with someone. it's more healing than crying alone 8. it's ok to get angry with god. he can take it 9. save for retirement starting with your first paycheck 10. wHen it cOmes to chOcoLate, resistance is futile 11. make peace with your past so it wont screw up the present -- LOL 12. it's ok tp let your children see you cry 13. dont compare your life to others.. you have no idea what their journey is all about 14. if a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it 15. everything can change in the blink of an eye. but dont worry god never blinks 1...

yeeaaaahhhhh :)) i mean it.. the princess is back on her castle XD LOL hahaha before i start blogging what happened to me with the whole flight... just gotta say it... I JUST HAD A HOT BATH :D YIIIIEEEEEEE after 9 months? i finally had my super rewarding hot bath... oh my gosh... the feeling was like.... hhhaaaiiiiiii :) in a good way.. :) so let me start now.. it was the day of my much awaited flight... the day that i have been expecting from i dont know when.. the day i will go back HOME. :) honestly i was scared, afraid and terrified... i was scared that my visa would be questioned and etc. i was afraid that my flight would be cancelled and would be rescheduled... i was terrified that i would be flying alone.... but with those fears in me.. i still was excited :) and maybe i was super excited that i overpowered-forgot?- my fears..! sooo ok :) going to the airport.. honda isnt being cooperative.. he was like overheating? and the traffic was whoah! so i decided to just sleep rather th...

ahaha earlier this year i blogged about that.. lesson learned stuff... and nOw it's almost december i caNt believe i'M relying on that song still.... hahaYy.. but thaT soNG is the perfect description of where i am right now :) i haVe learned another lesson... and hopefullY i woNt commit mistaKes anywhere near this new learned lesson :) here's the song :) "Lessons Learned" There's some things that I regret, *tHouGh i dOnt reaLLy sUpporT regrets* Some words I wish had gone unsaid, *yeaaHHhh* Some starts, That had some bitter endings, *talK about it!* Been some bad times I've been through, *a loT actualLy* Damage I cannot undo, *hmmm.... :|* Some things, I wish I could do all all over again, *NDE RIN!! HAHAHA stiLL not there* But it don't really matter, *YES!* Life gets that much harder, It makes you that much stronger, *AGREE!!!!* Oh, some pages turned, Some bridges burned, *thaTs what i am trying to avoid bUt it was extremelY necessary :P* But there wer...

The RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4.tag 20 of your friends. 5. Have Fun! TAGGED. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? >> worth the wait :) -seriously that will be my answer :))- HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? >> From the inside out :)) -haha seriously rin..!! i want to be used :D- WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? >> before the storm -hahahaha NO IDEA but i like nick j though :))- HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? >> never ever - shout out louds - IDK - WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? >> yOu belong with me.! :)) - KC NAMAN AYAW PA MANIWALA.. YOU BELONG WITH ME NA NGA! YUCKK ANG PANGET XD - WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? >> your biggest fan.!!!!! :)) - IDK?! - WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? >> just so you know? -XD :)) OMG NO NO NO NO :)) knOw the lyrics and you'll get it.. FRIE...

yaY 1sT bLog.!!! :D and yes i suPer intended this to be an educational one.. SiNce i'Ve always wanted to be a difference.... i'LL start by providing you some facts, reasons, etimologies, etc... :D ~ i neVer... -ok not never- but i always believed that my bag is incomplete without aLcohol in it... :D haha i am not a 'germ freak' but i just feel comfortable with my alcohol :D ~ i don't look directly in the eyes... specially when talking... idk but i feel that when i do that person will be hypnotized :)) HAHAHAHA but seriously... i dOn't feel comfortable talking with my eyes even seeing the person i am talking to.. ~if i do look straight in your eyes... i am trying to figure you out... HAHA -edward-ish much?- those rare times that i am looking into someone's eyes are those times that i am in need to feed my curiosity and in need of answers... :D ~I am a sucker for chinny eyes :D and positively unique attitudes :D haha idk.!!! but really... all my perspectives a...

THE MAKING… Actually I’m in the middle of making my family a sort of presentation... Something that i want them to watch whenever they miss me... (hahaha coz I’m pretty and sure that they will) i know that my works aren't that much to view but i still want to make them... i even have a feeling that i  will make my own presentation in all of my birthdays  to surprise everyone (ironic isn't it?) so.... here's the story.. To be really honest... i was shocked that today is May 16 well to be more honest it’s already 12:26 am so technically its now may 17... getting back... i was suppose to meet my old friends today but since i didn't know that today is may 16 i was expecting to meet them sometime next week... what a bummer... since i totally missed it and I’m terribly sorry for it.. I can’t do anything about it... its already done... i hoped they had fun... but there’s one more thing that is bugging me... And it is that my parents will be returning back to Doha on the ...

oK...i jusT finished wathcing a film.. and i am not telling what it was because it will be embarassing but.. its about high school.. friendship.. and moving on to college.. yeah you might have a guess of what it is right now and i'm letting you believe in your own guesses.. what ever movie you think it is yeah it is that one.. :P i have never looked graduation this way.. after graduation i felt nothing.. being that our graduation was totally weird like the ambassador telling the parents to vote and something like tHat :D i didnt feet the moment maybe because i wasn't aware that this may be the last time of seeing my classmates again.. or maybe i know that specially after graduation in elementary i transferred school and never saw my classmates again, but i was just afraid of that feeling the feeling of being left behind... i was so focused on my future that i forgot i am living today. maybe the reason why i can smile through every trial i have is because i look after tomor...

abby thank you for everything that you have done to me.. thank you for crying during our recollection... i then knew i have a real friend.. that i have someone to count on.. someone that i know will cry for me.. sabi mo ang strong kO kc nDe ako umiiyak and i can still smile but aBby.. nDe.. mas strOng ka sakin kc nagawa mong umiyaK.. sa mga bagay na nDe naman nangyayari sayo.. alam mo bang sobrang gusto kong umiyak pero nDe ko talaga magawa.. prang nDe ako makahanap nmg sobrang laking reasons pra umiyak... pero nung nkita kitang umiyak... naiyaK akO.. and super sarap ng feeliNg..! aun auN.. thank yoU tlaga abBy.. fOr makinG my last days memorable.. thank you talaga sa lahat..remember when you didnt talk to me for about a month when we were in third year and when i asked you why you said "trip ko lng" wahahaha.. it still makes me laugh.. nDe kO alam perO prang nakakatawa lang tlaga.. =)) thank you din pla sa lahat ng party mo sa al khor.. nag enjoii tlaga ung kafated ko sa lah...

i just finished watching the latest drama that maDe my heart skipped a beat and i am so sad but at the same time feeling so kiLig about iT and actually wanting the same happily ever after in iT.. bUt nOw i am jusT so noT feeliNg it aNd this feeling forced me to do this... supposedly i am to enjoy this moment and sleep happily but because of this it ruined my moment so i am really frustrated and finally realized i am at this ENOUGH. i have finally reached ENOUGH.. its actually great that i can finally describe what ENOUGH feels like.. ow wait i canT.. :D i've been planning to do this for a long time now but today i really felt the need to do it NOW. its not that i am giving up 'coz really i dont wanna put it in my nature. lets just say i'm doing this because i came to love myself more than i love you. *and yes i do love you* this one is worse than the previous one we had. coz this time i really kept my hopes high. i really want to see what will happen in the future. i ...