Realities of a Teenage Drama Princess :)

“People are often unreasonable and self-centered. Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.  If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway. If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.  For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.”  ―  Mother Teresa

*better is a one day in your courts, better is a one day in your house, better is a one day in your courts than a thousand else where :) starfield at edmonton was just. amazing. Thank you Lord for these people that you continue to use for your kingdom. :) i can not really go into details now and i'm not exactly sure if i can have them later but one thing is for sure. i wont waste what happened to me that night... I dont want to be away from my Lord again. I dont want to be this. and it is crazy to to expect changes even if i am not doing anything different. so MY LIFE BEGINS TODAY :) shaking out all the bad vibes. shutting down every negativity. LIVING AND LOVING ONE MORE TIME. embracing life. as it is. and this time... it's going to be... I WILL GO! still still but with a little attitude i guess. :)) even if no one follows. To the desperate eyes and reaching hands To the suffering and the lean To the ones the world has cast aside Where you want me I will be ...

This is the part of me that you'll never ever gonna take away from me. BACK TO BLOGGING! :) hmm.. what to write about... i've been gone for so long.. and the last posts were just miserable. i hope i  will never have to do that again in my life! xD update? well... things have been going well... except for so many things but that's just details. healing. :) and for a super weird note... 'somebody that i used to know' is playing. why does everything in my life seem to be all about you, huh? I'M SEEING STARFIELD TOMORROW! :) and i am soooo excited :) forgive me i havent blogged in so long that i forgot how i do it so for now i am just going to type whatever. so sorry, kuya patch and future yeye, you will need to have to endure this :)) i know how important writing stuffs like this because just this week i went through my youtube account and looked over my 'favorite' videos and it felt so good to be watching them all again :) with the phi...

MINE. this is mine. MY OWN personal space. MY WORLD. why should i mind you? so here it goes. AND I SWEAR. even if you arrive with a comeback for this one.. i won't do this again. i just refuse to be this person. so i'll stop. AFTER THIS :P round 2! :D this is just a pity. after all we've been through. and nothing pains me more, oh well except of course the actual things that are happening in my life right now, than us  being this. people who  are too afraid to do what has to be done, like i dont know express how mad? we are at each other?, and instead turn our feelings into nonsense meant-for-someone facebook posts... oh what the hell i'll just say it. I hate you. and though i never say "never again" or such because i dont know what happens tomorrow and I LIKE my WORDS KEPT. i'll say it for you both. NEVER AGAIN. never again will our friendship be like before. NEVER AGAIN would you see me as you saw me before. AND NEVER AGAIN would my trust for...

I AM EVERYTHING YOU ARE NOT, honey ;) and YES, YOU KNOW I AM ;) haha :P if you are going to be two faced. AT LEAST have ONE of them pretty. and promise last na... YOU ARE AS FAKE AS THAT PADDED BRA YOU'RE WEARING. :))))))))))))))))))))

and this, friends, is what he told me. BS. BS everywhere. oh well. PLUS. did you know that the jonas brothers would be in manila this october... my reaction if this happened last year. *_* BUT since it's this year... T_T WHHHHYYYYYYYYYY. i am still marrying nick jonas though. :P HAHAHAHAHAHAH #crazy #delusional #pathetic #bitter

"we cant be friends anymore" those are not the exact words but those are the only thing i can amount it to...  i just thought that... well i guess not.  it's just that... i really really loathe broken promises. i wasn't prepared for it to be coming from you too... and you. i hope you're finally happy with this. you won. in a game that i dont even want to play.  it's just so heartbreaking. everything is...  :(  HOW? and WHY NOW? 

never make the mistake of thinking just because you value something.. others would value it the same way you do... some just dont care...

As promised! here it is! my 18th year special... here are all the links…. 18 Best friends Part 1   and Part 2 18 Prince Charmings 18 Candles and Roses   Special Mentions Speech (more like a life story ) and this, like the Olympics, is my 18th year Closing Ceremony pretty grand right? until the next years!

Here’s some noteworthy people during my Debut   My mom   my pretend make-up artist xD The one who handled all the preparations and the one who put up with me with all the pre-debut pressures xD I love you MAMA Thank you! My Grandmother   for being the most gorgeous lola ever! not everyone is blessed to have their grandmothers at their debut let alone to have their grandmothers as fabulous as mine     MY BAND! Kim Umali, Lorie Fookson, Cyrill Vergara and Archival Gan they did it for food! hahahaha My Escorts! my lovely brothers, Marco and Michael MY FAMILY especially my sister, Michelle for flying all the way from Doha in her own expense   Tito Norman, for the opening prayer and thoughtful reminders Tito Alfie, for serenading me and making me feel oh so beautiful Tito Bobo, For the wonderful toast!         Pastor William, for praying for the foods     ...

Due to lack of time and Creativity here’s a CHEERS! to my 18 Candles and 18 Roses! My FIRST DANCE, my father, the most important male person in my life right now… Luciano Francisco Tan   UNCLES! Mother’s side Tito Elmer, Norman, Ompong, Randy, Alfie and Tito Bobo yup! my mom had 6 brothers! she’s the only daughter! and they were all present during my debut! I’m really a lucky girl! I have such good looking uncles right? More Uncles! Tito Junior, Diko, and Ninong Edgar – all from my granmother’s side and my one and only uncle from my daddy’s side present during my debut.. only because he’s the only one in the country.. Tito Boyet   Churchmates! Ka Lito and Ka Tom From IRM Malanday… REAL MEN! they have been there for our family ever since I can remember Pastors! Pastor Errol,  Pastor Tonet, Pastor Elmer and Pastor William I KNOW RIGHT! I had 4 Pastors during my debut! and MORE! what a party right? all of them are from IRM ...